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Tell her that I want her back
Monday, January 14, 2013
" All the time, I was waiting, hoping you could come around. "
With the love of Lord, I have an evil confession to make, again. I'm so screwed. I really dunno where am I now. I'm lost, so lost in the middle of sea of people. I dunno. I dunno if I'm not happy, or I'm unhappy. And if you feel it with heart, try to understand with your soul, you will realise that they are two different matters. Lately, I'm so not me. I've sorta becoming lazier and lazier. Loss of motivation, loss of passion, oh ya, like having cancer, loss of appetite as well. And what makes me even guilty is ... a one hour afternoon nap becomes the most interesting event I ever had in the day. Like I've just came back from Alice's wonderland. Like life is great because something interesting is happening on the another side in your subconscious .. which is ... never ever exist in reality, poorly. I miss my sea pigs and dancing sardin, really, very much. They ensure me that I was happy at that time. Need to be spiced up; Hze
- 10:03 PM. Not every okay
Thursday, January 3, 2013
" See how ugly with every piece of you. "
Moderately destructed. Argh. Wanna puke. Life is so suck. I start to think that am I that kind of person like Lynnette Scavo in Desperate Housewives ?? Like ... will never ever feel contented and always just unhappy ?? But I really don't see how to be contented and happy with a current life like this ? School-home, school-home. Books-books-books. Batchmates-seniors-lecturers-bactmates-seniors-lecturers. Not going to other slightly special places, not having any better hobby, not meeting people that I love. At first, thinking that once back to Malaysia, everything will be finally okay. But, seriously, no big difference, except no need to share a room with unlovable stranger anymore. The rest are still remaining unchanged. I really wanna be happier, even just a little more. I don't like to be unhappy. Swallowing; Hze
- 1:59 AM. Don't ask me, I'll never tell
Sunday, December 30, 2012
" Hey I just met you, but this is crazy. "
I refuse to admit what I've been missing all the time. I'm trying to collect every little piece by piece each of the day. But I got nothing. I already thinking of giving up; Hze
- 1:57 AM. Are you mine?
Saturday, December 29, 2012
" Conversation got boring. "
No longer familiar with those whom I familiar with. I think I'm done trying; Hze
- 2:29 AM. Take me, far away
" Tight jeans, skin was showing. "
I'm gonna blog again. I'll try to be an active blogger again. Yeap, I wanna make some changes. I hope to bring back some colours in my life again. It isn't bored, it is empty. Like now, it has been a long time no one really stay in my mind. Like nobody really can bother me to talk about. " I rather feel bad than nothing. " I used to strongly disagree with the above phase mentioned. But then .... Oh, I'm just living too old. Not sweet, not sour, no spices. Like middle-aged crisis. For God's sake, in the age of 22 ???? I wanna be young again, really. Breaking rules, not studying, wandering alone, driving fast. I wanna be young again; Hze
- 2:16 AM. I'm not a princess, this isn't fairytale
Sunday, September 9, 2012
" Stupid girl, you should have known. " Weather : Sunny Mood : Very emo Today is the 12th day after I potong rambut. I feel like potong again. Still in searching; Hze
- 1:06 PM. I'm about to explode
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Okay. Emotionally interrupted to the max. So the best is, stop talking and just bitching ! I just realise I'm actually stop blogging for a while. Actually, I shift to bitching all the time at here. With hand; using phases, not with mouth; using voices. I never feel boring until I come here. I didn't even know the exact spelling for bored is B-O-R-E-D I'm not sure I'm bored to mad, or lonely to mad now. Boredom and loneliness, they seem love me so much than anyone else on the earth. But according to sequence, I suppose, because of lonely so I feel bored. Yet, I was alone last time, why don't I feel bored? In conclusion, what I actually need the most, is shoping complexes. The more complex, the better it will be. Friends ? Boyfriends, girlfriends, are they really gonna last until death tears us apart ? My apology, knowing that my bestfriends would have read this, but I still have to say, yes, I doubt about it. Best friends. Look at my cases in record. Angel, Sook Yee, Alva. Ok the first one, might be the stupidiest primary best friendship thing. But still, I see people hang out with their best primary friends like time never really exist within them. The second one, being so popular, until I'm so tiny like shrimp to her. So I being tired over always the one takes initiative. Our friendship went into grave with a sms of mine filled frustration of the moment. Then Alva. 360 degree transformation because of her first boyfriend. Okay, I'm bitch. I still dunno what she sees into him. And I guess, I won't be invited if they really steeping into the church. Then, the recent. Yea, Tan Jack Syen. Someone I wanted to make him as my children's godfather, who has chosen to make me evapourate in his atmosphere first. I don't even know what I've done ! Since I'm in the baddest mood, if I continue to talk about him, I might end up cursing him til no end. Then the other day, me and Lian were talking about '' She doesn't even share her things with us anymore. '' This is so true. I gonna reveal something here. Years ago, I know this girl. She always says something makes me feel ''Oh dear, somebody just into my heart without I showing it out. '' I guess now, she is the only thing could amaze me. To Lillian Sea, the one doing nothing but already cheers me up :) To be continue; Hze
- 1:04 AM. Stay tough, be inspired
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger." The 11th day since I got back home. Emotionally dosed still. I still tangled by studies though. I hate when I feel awfully guilty. Partly affecting by something I'm trying to figure out. I feel myself have lost my own principle in defining friends. It's the 11th day. I got only being warmed by Shaz, June and my dear boyfriend. Where the hell have the others gone? When I'm in JB, those nearby can't be met up. So I made myself to KL, yet, same sad story. The saddest is, When you realize your friend has changed, And you actually have nothing to talk anymore. Only my dearest makes me feel the warmest. I love you, with all my heart. Things are left behind, they're memories, and history; Hze
- 2:05 PM. Ain't nobody gonna treat you better
Thursday, March 8, 2012
I don't want anymore heartbroken, I rather be heartless than heartbroken. I don't know what I had done to deserve these.
- 3:08 AM. My favorite girl turns 21 !!
Monday, January 2, 2012
Dear Jolene,
Happy Sweet 21st =)
I wish you were here with me,
I wish we could cry together, and then get back okay again.
I miss back there, we were talking, getting louder and louder.
I miss back there, we were hunting for clothes,
so desperately like two hungry foxes.
I miss everything we do together.
I love you dear =)
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