" All the time, I was waiting, hoping you could come around. "

With the love of Lord,
I have an evil confession to make, again.

I'm so screwed.
I really dunno where am I now.

I'm lost, so lost in the middle of sea of people.

I dunno.
I dunno if I'm not happy, or I'm unhappy.

And if you feel it with heart, try to understand with your soul,
you will realise that they are two different matters.

Lately, I'm so not me.
I've sorta becoming lazier and lazier.

Loss of motivation,
loss of passion,
oh ya, like having cancer, loss of appetite as well.

And what makes me even guilty is ...
a one hour afternoon nap becomes the most interesting event I ever had in the day.

Like I've just came back from Alice's wonderland.
Like life is great because something interesting is happening on the another side in your subconscious ..
which is ... never ever exist in reality, poorly.

I miss my sea pigs and dancing sardin, really, very much.
They ensure me that I was happy at that time.

Need to be spiced up;
Hze

- 10:03 PM.