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DISCLAIMER. Hello, this isHazel Frances Kong =D welcome to The.Hazel.City *Linked to my 1st blog:The.Hazel.Planet FLASHBACKS. January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 January 2012 March 2012 April 2012 September 2012 December 2012 January 2013 OCCASIONAL VISITS. OCCASIONAL VISITS. Bitch-alert, Blogsecret, Blogskins, Chickenshit, d'Amour, Fashionprotege, Fragmentsofletters, Fuckyeahfoodcravings, Icanread, Idareyoutoclickthis, Iloveccupcakes, Leilockheart, Lovebot, Misswallflower, Mkathrynd, Radio913, Sogou, ThedoctorsTV, Thingssheloves, Yourdeafeningsilence, Vi.sualize, |
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Friday, August 27, 2010
Yeap. The name of the street has been changed but this city owner is still the same person. You are now in ******** My beloved daddy said something very touching to me today. I should have recorded the conversation down using my phone. But, never mind. My brain did the effort in recording xD R--replayy --->>> " Daddy knows that you can be fully independent already, except in the aspect of financial. And this is also the only thing I can support for you, for you need nothing else from me. " " It's going to be years, no more weeks or months. Very soon, we won't be meeting that frequent anymore. Daddy wants to treasure all the time left that you're still beside me. I want to spend maxtimum time to talk and eat with you. Because in future, we won't have that much chances anymore ." " Daddy believes you, I know you're not silly. I'm giving you another chance and you must not disappoint me again. You must know, I'm not investing money on you. Daddy doesn't look forward you to repay me. All I know is I have only one daughter, that's you. As a father, I try to give you the best as I can. What daddy hopes is you can make an alternation on this history ." I don have a great dad but I still don't understand why the hell mom still keeps complaining about dad. " Daddy, I love you so much. Like I said, one day I gonna make you proud. " Signing off; Hze
- 10:45 PM. I know a place, where the grass is really greener
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Whoa. It has been a long long time ago since the last time I had a good chat with friends in a cosy cafe. Here, my two newly good friends =)  Mini-sized housemate, Mun Yee ^^ Mun Yee really takes care of me and shows lots of concern to me. She makes me feel warm when I was lonely.  Aiyo, I like this girl so much called Li Han !! =D Li Han is Mun Yee's best friend. Super glad to know her ^^ Li Han shares lots of similar thoughts and interests with me ;D But she is labelled as normal while I'm abnormal =( Maybe I shouldn't speak out everything in my mind.  fate might be not deep enough. But this friendship is definitely true enough to make me keep in my mind for life. Signing off; Hze
- 11:56 PM. I know what I am doing
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
My most favourite animals are lizards. I admire their ability of anti-gravity. They're so COOL. I'm so impressed as they could stick onto the wall for hours, effortlessly and motionlessly. ******** I believe that spiders are the greatest designers in Insecta-world. The patters of their web reflect their incredible creactivity. =) Signing off; Hze
- 10:56 PM. Trying to picture a girl through a looking glass
Prof. Chew said : " A guy produces 300 million of sperms each of the day, so, make good use on them, but very dangerous. " Then he told me : " Stay. If you can close one eye. I know you can be a good doctor. " When I mentioned about my mom to him, he said : " All the Hakka ladies are like that. I know some and they are all the same. " Signing off; Hze
- 9:12 PM. What's wrong with you ?
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Are you a part of MY INSPIRATIONS or just a NONSENSE DISTRATION ?! Signing off; Hze
- 6:23 PM. Thanks for act like you care
I believe, there must be a reason for every single thing to be happened. Signing off; Hze
- 5:53 PM. Hate enough of all the bullshits you give !
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Sometimes, I really wish to ask my mom to shut up and stay out of my affairs !!! I know I can never do that and I'm not suppose to do that. I truly appreciate every effort that she has put in for me. But I just couldn't stand her 'shut up and just listen to me' attitude !!! I know she concerns about me, but in another way, she is just being over-kaypoh !! In short, if I really commit suicide and so lucky to be able to die, please tell the police that my mom is the main culprit ! Devastatingly; Hze
- 10:41 PM. Every little earthquake, every little heartbreak going unheard
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Fate is so appreciable but destiny is such disgustable ! Went Midvalley again, and it wasn't really in plan. I just don't want fill myself with silence. The quiet scares me cuz it screams the truth. Met my darling Kuanshuen baobei at that huge huge Megamall amazingly !! If wasn't that girl shout out " KUAN SHUEN " that loud, I wouldn't have turn my head and saw this mini-sized 'Potato' . I never thought besides my mom, that would be another person cries for me. Like yesterday, when Mun Yee asked : " Hazel, do you mind if I say prayer for you ? " OMG, I was so touched, really. People around me are really sweet and kind to me, but things just don't go smoothly ! I really wish to know what the fucking hell wrong with you ?! In response to Lillian's message : Sweetie, not that I don't want tell. You all know that Hazel can hardly keep her mouth shut. But I'm running out of battery, spare me some time to recharge first okay ? I love you girls. Signing off; Hze
- 11:50 PM. I call upon for help, hoping someone would respond me
Am I being over-stubborn or holding an over-strong principle ? I have came so far, worked so hard, sacrified so much and suffered so long. Couldn't you just meet me halfway ? I'm so clear that there're only two ways to make thing easier. It is either : I give up or you give way. If I give up, I probably will live in regretness and they will stay in worthlessness. Well, if you could kindly give way and offer me another chance to reborn, there wouldn't be any ending better than this. Signing off; Hze
- 2:20 AM. Picture perfect memories scattered all around on floor
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Reaching another peak of sanity, I'm utterly tired in battling. I never feel so huge pressure in my life where forces come from all directions, driving me closer and closer to the dead end. What comes even worse is, I gonna deal them all with myself alone. But the worst is, I never thought that I'm so susceptible to viruses ! I wish I could hibernate for 3 days and 3 nights. When I wake up from it, everything will be solved; no more headache, no more heartache and no more mind stirring-up. It sounds like trying to escape the problems ... *Sigh ~ Since when I have sucha timid thought develops within me ? Indeed, Harry Potter is like a bible to me. Whenever I open it, I see light. But when I close it up, I'm back to darkness again. Sometimes I wish the magical world of Harry Potter can be real more than anything in the world, and I don't mind if I'm just a muggle. " Just another few more days. " So Hazel, keep yourself sane again for just another few days. Upon surviving from this illness, I want a long-life immunity ! Signing off; Hze
- 12:58 PM. Someday when this is over, we may still have no answer
Friday, August 6, 2010
Last year, around this time ; about this period, crackings started to grow deeper and deeper. I tried to glue back every single broken up fragments of our friendship but it seemed nothing I can do to seal them back. My 100th post at The.Hazel.City, delicated to HER, someone once was my bestest friend. I understand there's no point reminising someone who is no longer worth while. For she is no longer who she used to be ... But I'm too weak to get over how I was bestfriended with her just two years ago. I wanted everything to stay the same, but time flies, feeling fades and people change. I know she must be doing great with her boyfriend and maybe I was over-reacted ... It has been a year, and our last conversation was only months ago, why do I feel sucha huge unfamiliarity towards her whom I was so close to once upon a time ? It's utterly silly for me still keeping her number inside my phone for I know that I'll never call her or text her again .. so as she, I'm pretty sure about it. I recall those days when we were sticking to each other like twins, always appeared in pair ... How we excited over cool stuffs, how she stood by my side when the whole world alienated me, how I waited the arrival of postman desperately for her greetings how she listened every single word of mine patiently ... Are those the brilliant movies replay in my head or the mutated cells develop in my brain ? She means so much to me, this explains why it's still so hurting whenever I think of her. Signing off; Hze
- 9:08 PM. I'm tired of the game
A psychological fact says that : When a person cries, the first drop of tears come from the right eyes - It's Happiness. But when the first drop of tears is from the left eyes - It's Pain. So next time, when you doubt about what your tears mean, always refer back to your eyes. Signing off; Hze
- 1:28 PM. my judgement is getting kinda hazy
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Boys and girls, here comes de-stressing corner ^^ ***xoxo*** There was a man gives this woman 12 roses, eleven of them were real ones and one was fake one. Then he said : " I'll love you until the last rose dies. " ***xoxo*** Don't tell me you don't think this story is sweet. Alright, stop emo-ing people ! Coz the sun still gonna rise tomorrow and you have to open your eyes when the dawn breaks. Signing off; Hze
- 11:31 PM. I know life is like the crossroad between heaven and hell
Monday, August 2, 2010
Yeap people. I have the feeling of it has been a long time since the last time I blog. Many things to share but a LITTLE bit lazy to update =P Sending off mom back to JB again only just before 2 weeks she came alone for the first time. Fully exhausted, not a sweet dream but another horrible nightmare ! I skipped for another 2 days of lecture AGAIN ... I guess no one can have a better attendence record than me xP Mom and I have actually gone for a -- Blood-vomiting Most Terrible Ever 2 days Kelantan Trip !! How blood-vomiting it was ? Stay tune for the post in future ;D ******** Ok now back to my mom again. Dunno what is the best word to describe this mother-and-daughter relationship that I share with my mother. As we can quarrel fiecely over a peanut thing then laugh like two mad women over a random joke. We are so close to each other but not really fond of each other very much. Through the years, I kept doubting of what actually has my own mother done to me beside carrying me inside her womb for 9 months then looking after me until I reached 8 years old. Unlike other girls, I didn't go for piano lesson nor ballet class. I'm not allowed to sing, to swim and to draw Whatever I requested, it will only be an answer in return - " I say NO ! And don't ask again ! " Eventually, I stop asking and just go ahead with whatever I want as long as I don't commit crime. But most of the time, I always either too careless to be caught by mom what I'm trying so hard to hide from her or she is just too clever finding out what I dunwan her to know. I never thought that my mom's real contribution on me is in my age of nineteen. She did so much so much for me within these few months. I appreciate the recent everything that she has done for me But then, her over-crazy anxiety drives me insane and next-second mood swinging makes me wanna vomit white foam !! No matter what, without a mom like her, will never have a daughter like me. The biggest contribution of my mom to the earth is- created a brand new species of homo sapien, ME =P " Mie, thank you so much for the hell you give me and the heaven you bring to me. They shape me into who I am today and I love myself. " Signing off; Hze
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