I, somehow, start hating to come here.

Because whenever I come here,

I bring no good.

I don't like here, I detest here, and I decided to HATE here.

I spent 6 years in two girl school.

I thought I had been seeing the freakiest types of girls on the earth.

Obviously, I was wrong; utterly.

When I was in SETA, I hated that place also.

But it was much much lesser than now, and I was being more apathic.

And at that time, we were all still young;

too young to be mature.

But now aren't we old enough to be mature?!

I wasn't like that, why making me so ?!

Everyday I tell myself that I just wanna graduate soon and leave this stupid crowd !

I think I should praying from onwards.

"Dear God. I know I really ......have no word to be described.

I only come to You when I need help.

But please, just bless me on my studies.

I only ask for going to second year smoothly.

Haih .. if I fail, I'm going to end my life,

but the problem is, I die also dunwan to die at this place.

Not threatening you, I am just pleading for

a little more mercy from You Almighty. "

By the way, I had a dream yesterday.

I dreamt that there is a monster attacks our Earth Planet.

I dunno why on my age turning to be 20, I still like a kid,

dreaming  about monster is coming tomorrow ??!!

Anyway, the main point is-

my mom is the first one I save.

See, sometimes my subconscious always reminds me that I love her,

even, I wanna deny it so much.

So hard to stay happy;

Hze