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You don't look for a place to hide
Thursday, July 28, 2011
''Does the pain weigh out the pride?'' Miley Cirrus sings : ''Sometime you gotta lose.'' and Green Day sings : ''Lay down your arms, give up the fight.'' It's a awfully battled wednesday. When your own mind breaks the spirit of your soul, and makes your faith walks on broken glasses. Dunno what's wrong with me. Not the environment or the surrounding this time, it's me. I just don't see a reason why am I stressed up ?! It's IDIOTIC and SILLY !! Then, I gotta admit that it was all because of the devils and monsters live inside me. What's worth to fight for but doesn't worth to die for ? This is the one, isn't it ? Being ambitious is good, but being over-ambitious can be really fatal, like today, I almost killed by my own greed. Sometimes I thought; Jealous; Envy and Greedy, three of them, they just never being far, am I right ? The last thing makes them as a component is - Hatred Today I learn 2 thing : The first one, the first step to get a problem solved is to admit the cause of it. The second one, I'm really not a little girl anymore, 'cause I don't see my daddy as a superman who will save me all the time. Lots more to be learnt; Hze
- 4:45 AM. You aren't what I thought you were
Monday, July 25, 2011
''Baby, but this time I have figured you out.'' Bree Hodge is right, she and Katherine Mayfair can never become goodfriends, because they are the exact same type of people. Although she may be the one who knows her the best well. For a period of time, I do really feel glad to finally find someone like myself, but not exactly maybe, I just feel happy at least someone does truly understand how do I really feel inside. Obviously, I was wrong. I made two mistakes. The first one I'm going to confess very soon. For the second one, it's so disappointing to myself, and maybe to Miss Lillian Sea. I wasn't careful enough. Usually, I don't treat strangers friendly, but she makes me made an exception. You know what, no one can critisize me unless you know me. Whatever it is, I don't really care how strangers look at me. I know myself well, and people who I love know me as well. Basically, I'm mad about myself, for being that dumbly innocent at this age, to see a wrong person as real friend. Gosh. I repeat, I just can't tolerate if I make stupid mistake ! Been in two girl schools for six years, yet, I still don't see into girls better than I see through guys. It's a huge shame, Hazel ! The last part before I end whatever with her, I thank God, making me feel bored, letting me at least conserve the last unique thing I own. Seriously not clever enough; Hze
- 4:45 PM. If we could live out of our life
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
''It's been a year, so it doesn't surprise me.'' haih~ I'm just saying, no Hell, no Heaven, then I won't have a reason to come here. Yes, Heaven pity few here; only Hell pretty much... I'm suddenly be reminded that, the only evidence can prove that I was actually gradurated from a chinese school for primary education is - I can write calligraphy. Yea, out of ten souls in ten people, only half soul will believe this. I approach this my earliest hobby on the age of eight. I can't write very very well la, but at least mine never got pasted on the fornt door of classroom to scare away evil spirits. And I represented class to go for competition, but never got back a single prize for years, as well :( So, this is the proudest thing I can share during my chinese-educating life .. Still, I forced to stop writting on my age of 16 :( Then, I used to hate Mathematics when I was very little, my mom says it is because it was taught in chinese during primary school. I agree, cause' I never got more than 60 during that 6 years ... =/ But very soon once after I got into secondary school, it becomes my most favourite subject, of course I start scoring higher than before :) At once, I just truly mad over Mathematics. I did the questions day and night, I just love numbers. Still, again, another favourite thing of mine just gets out of my life, once again. In certain unguarded moments, I will still recall those evenings I wrote calligraphy just purely for destress purpose, and those days I never be without a scientific calculator carried along. We were all taught not to look back, but sometimes, we just can't stop thinking those more beautiful days ... Have been walking so far; Hze
- 5:17 AM. This guy is just my type
Monday, July 18, 2011
http://spreadingmyphilosophy.blogspot.com/ xD; Hze
- 5:37 AM. A better life, for you and I
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
>.< !!!!!!!!!! Argh. I really beh tahan liao. I already don't really like the size and the design of the bathroom they provided, now, tak ade lampu pulak !!! Though it wasn't the first time la, but it's really very very inconvinent okay. Especially to me, as a faithful member of Rombongan Ketandasan !!! Everytime I see the electrician ah ne, you can never imagine how much effort I apply to control myself not to strangle him to death !!! I only ask for a small light bulb, guess what is his reason? '' No stock. '' NO STOCK ???!!! Eh hello, this is India lea, there is no such thing called no stock with the number of citizen standing on your land ! Haih. Dark room I can stand, DARK BATHROOM drives me insane !!! Faster get me the damn light bulb la; Hze ='( ='( ='(
- 6:12 AM. Mystery; never ending-story
Friday, July 8, 2011
''Just not getting over you.'' I do thing realistically; but i think dramatically, on certain time; on certain things. I bet people who know me will agree with this. But, which girl doesn't be even a little dramatic?? We all do, right? Because the female characters in the drama seem more convincing to exist than princesses in the fairytales. Girls can be really very into a drama, just like boys insane over games which the fire came out those guns aren't even a real one. Then, I'm good in lying but very suck in pretending and hiding. On many times, I bought a new dress and lied to my mom so sucessfully that it is an old one, but I can't pretend it was always in my wardrobe, and fail to destroy the price tag =/ I was extremely stubborn, but not that much anymore, I feel, inside me. But in many cases, I surrender easily, when come to deal with human beings. I pray so hard for that not to happen at least til I finish my final exam. Yet, God don't answer my prayer. This is so wrong to be happened at this time, but it is too late, it has already happened. Like the little mermaid got back her tail before she kisses the prince. Very pathetic right? =( Plan got disturbed, mind got messed up and heart doesn't beat at its normal rhythm. We all are taught that mother's words are the rightest ones. I agree with that, but mothers make mistakes also. So, occasionally, I go against mama's words, and those are usually big things to be afforded by big mistakes. Just a few midnight's craps; Hze
- 5:20 AM. I didn't know you can dance like this
Thursday, July 7, 2011
''I'll appreciate if you would set me free.'' Normally, if I have something that I consider as a problem, I share out. And the one I share with is definitely someone I called friend, good friend, or best friend. Extent of detail sharing, depends on to which the one is categorised. But abnormally, I come to another problem that - ''To who I can share this?'' or even worse, ''Will they understand why I decide this as a problem?'' This reminds me another abnormality of mine besides practising nocturnal lifestyle since very little.... That is, what I called a problem usually the others called it as a self-searching trouble. Like chichi would say : ''What's wrong with you again this time?'' And PP would reply: ''You want be like your mother is it?'' So, sometimes, I do subconciously think twice before mentioning out my 'problem'. Maybe some of them somewhat get the whole point of this post by now. Indeed, I got a 'problem' here, again, sadly highlighted. That usually repeating problem which I thought it had gone for every last time, but still the next time here it comes. So, I come here, because I couldn't find someone appropriate to share with. Now, at least I don't pretend I'm okay when I'm not, and this is important to me cause' I feel so much better than sobbing under the blanket when the light went off. Three hours left before the last paper; Hze
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